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Monday, May 17, 2010

Today was a unproductive day. Had 2 lectures, 10.30am and 2pm. It basically screwed up my time today.. I had no mood to do anything today. Tried writing my thesis but nothing came to my mind. So I decided to edit the photos but they were so many to edit.

What's going on with me? I seems to have lose my focus around here. Wake up Chin Chin!!! Stop dreaming and get back to reality! I hate the way I'm feeling right now. It's neither here nor there. I tried so hard not to think about it, but it just keeps coming back to me. Deep down I know that it's not gonna happen but the feeling just wont go away. And just when I thought I have sorted out everything, BANG! Everything just came back to me like a bullet train.

Stop being so naive and behaving like a kid. You know that it's impossible and there wont be a good ending to it. Why bother to go down that pathway when you already know the ending? It will only hurt more in the end. You can only blame yourself for everything that has happened up till now.

I have to snap out of it and stop living in my own fantasy world.

The truth is, it's hard to fight back the emotions and pretend nothing has happened. Whatever the situation is, I just have to force myself not to sink deeper into it. I need someone to pull me out of the quicksand that dragging me slowly right now. All the dilemma, frustration and anxiety are killing me right now. I just need to know the truth. Just tell me and I'll be okay. Stop playing games with me cause I really can't take it anymore.

I'm mentally drained...

Pls.. Either be in or out of my life.


think again. 8:15 PM



♥ WELCOME

Chin Chin
03.06.88
Melb Uni-Microbiology and Biotechnology



♥ PROFILE

A simple girl who enjoys spending her time in Borders reading books, especially those on food. Dessert is her weakness and her motto is "There's always room for more when it comes to dessert".
She has a thing for English guys, probably because of their accent and she would love to visit UK in the future, be it for studies, work or holidays.
She loves to bake, especially for her friends. Cheesecake is her favourite dessert of all.



♥ WANTS

Canon Powershot G11
Recipe Books
Belly Piercing



♥ TAG






♥ links



Ai Yun
Benjamin
Chuan Bee
Chu Zen
Debbie
Hui Xian
Huai An
Hui San
Hui Si
James
Jesslyn
Jason
Jian Zhong
Kelvin
Krystle
Louis
Mun Ying
Mel
Ouyang
Rachel
Sharon Zhang
Shu Ting
Wayne
Wei Kang
Wei Chong
Wen Hui
Wan Qing
Wilson
Xiang Ming
Xian Xu
Xue Li
Yin Boon
Yong Rui
You Wei
Zhen Xiang



♥ READS

Baking Mum
Camemberu
Lady Iron Chef
I eat I shoot I post
XiaXue



♥ credits



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