Wednesday, October 07, 2009
I know I havent been updating for ages.
Daylight saving has started. So now Melbourne is 3hrs ahead of singapore. Somehow it's a good thing coz I've been staying in the lab for the past few weeks till 7pm plus and the sky was always alr dark by 6.30pm. So with DST, the sun would still be up to 7.30pm.
Anyway, life is pretty much mundane right now. Everyday I'll reach lab ard 9.30am and end work by 6pm. Sometimes it might be earlier or later, but 75% of the time I end late. Right now, I can feel the stress and work load piling up. It's like an invisible force that's sitting on my shoulder, and it's getting heavier each day. In addition, my meals are screwed up. I eat like 1 or 2 meals per day and I hardly have the time to cook nowadays. Damn it. My meat and fish have been frozen in my fridge for 2wks. And I just cooked a proper meal for myself today becoz I went home early due to my painful and horrible cramps.
Time passes really fast when we're busy. Without realising it, I have been in melbourne for over a year. Living away from home, my family, has taught me quite alot of things. I know it sounds cliche but I have been living in my comfort zone for the past 20yrs of my life. Ever since I was borned, my parents have always been there for me. I was treated like a princess as I am the only daughter in the family. I was also the cry-baby of the family. I would cry over the smallest matter and wouldnt stop unless my parents promised to buy stuffs that I wanted. When my younger brother was borned, everything changed. My parents began to focus their attention on him coz he was still a infant. As a usual I grew jealous of him and started to be nasty to him. We practically grew up fighting, like any other siblings, yet we still had moments of joy and fun. When I looked at our childhood photos, I would unknowningly smile to myself. This is because my younger brother looked so adorable when he was a child. I've never noticed it till a few yrs back when I was re-organizing my photos. Now thinking back of all the things I've done to him, I feel so guilty. I feel that I havent done my part as a sister. Now as both of us have our own world to deal with, the r/s seems to be drifting apart. Well. It has never been strong in the first place, so it's difficult for me now to connect with him. Nonetheless, I still have faith in myself and my brother that our r/s would improve and we can have the best sis-brother r/s ever.
I still have more to write but my cramp is giving me hell lots of pain now. So I'll just stop here and hopefully it wont be long for my next post.
think again. 6:41 PM
