Sunday, November 19, 2006
Feeling kinda moody now.
Perhaps it's due to the 3 tests that i've having next week. Consecutive days somemore. Just completed one chapter for biochemical. Osrm is still un-touched.
*shake head*Or maybe the moodiness is due to something else?
Seriously speaking, i have no idea too. I am having mixed feelings now. While i was looking through my personal diary book, i was suddenly bombarded with lots of emotions. And again, i ended up crying. Sometime i wonder what is life with and w/o friends. Obviously, life is always better with friends around provided they are your trusted friends. Even so, friends sometimes do talk abt each other behind their back. But then as long as they mean no harm, we shouldn't be really bothered about it. In anyway, this is human nature. When you gossip about someone, someone else is also gossiping about you. This is what they call karma.
I am grateful to God for allowing me to meet this group of friends in poly. It doesn't matter when we meet them as long as we cherish the friendship that is built. I am saying this because i nv realised my good friends are always around me until this year. I have regretted twice for not cherishing two of my good friends. Perhaps it was due to differences in our lifestyle and thinking that led to this. But many a times, i still blamed myself for the way things turn out. I always feel that if i had done this or that, things might have been different. Actually, i'm think i'm always blaming myself if things turn out bad. Well. I guess this is just me. Always putting blame onto myself instead of others especially when it comes to relationship stuffs.
Actually, I miss this friend of mine. Miss as in it's been a long time since i last saw him. No other feelings. However, sometimes i feel so difficult to speak to him that eveytime i try to do so, i decided not to. I thought of taking initiative many times, but still i dont have the courage. I'm afraid that he will find me irritating or even annoying. On the other hand, if i don't keep in contact with him, i might lose this friend forever. I have already regretted twice and i don't wish to do so anymore.
An emo entry.
Good luck for the test next week.
think again. 5:26 PM
