Friday, July 21, 2006
Time: 0000
Feeling so lethargic lately.. No mood to do anything.. Just wanna go to some place to chill instead of going home..
Signed up for EPs and sad to say the italian culinary course was fully booked! sobx sobx..
Anyway, rachel, grace, vonne, ouyang, jie yun, ben, chian hwee and I went to International Plaza for the job interview.. Initially we thought we need to go for the interview, but the person-in-charge said we had to do this typing test.
We were so shocked and nervous lar.. The ultimate winner was yvonne.. Hahas.. She can type really fast!
Then there was a commotion between ben, grace and chian hwee.. Lolx.. Damn funny..
chian hwee, you're dead man.. No matter what, you gonna do that forfeit! wahahaha. =P
Had a great chat with grace, ouyang and rachel. They truly rock my life. And not forgetting my dearest vonne! =)
Reached hme ard 9pm plus.. Been reaching home ard this time lately.. Kinda dread going home so early cause there's nth to do and all i get is nagging, so wad's the point of goin home.
Arguments, resentment and tired.
This is what i get whenever i'm at home.. How do you expect me to study or do my stuff when there's so many commotion happenin in the hse? All you know is to pick on the smallest and insignificant stuff to quarrel about. so what if i'm eating my dinner outside? so what if my brother answer ur calls? so what if i havent dry my hair? Why do you keep scolding me when i'm not at fault in the first place? I kept my mouth shut cause i didn't want to argue with you and you said i'm not listening to what you were saying. Why do you always pick on the most ridiculous stuffs to start up a argument? I'm already so stressed out and yet you're adding more to it. I need my own time and privacy. Constricting my time wont change anything. Invading my privacy has always been ur forte. Don't think that i'm a fool. I know you rummaged through my stuffs now and then. I just don't want to confront you that's all.
So what if you're my mum, dad or brother? You guys do not have the right to invade my privacy. Where's the respect that everyone hopes to have? You don't even trust me, lest the respect that i deserved. Up to now, you still believe whenever i'm going out, i'll be meeting him. Why can't you just trust me for once? Is it a difficult task to do? And i hate it when you bring up the topic and start using that as an excuse to scold me. Do you know that really hurts me alot when you bring up that topic? I'm trying my best to forget it but each time you remind me of the pain. Sometime i just wish you would shut up and don't care about me.
I just want to be alone._____________________________________________________________Time: 11.17
Feeling damn damn damn tired and sleepy now. Only managed to get 2 hrs of sleep today.
Today is really a bad day for me. Got scolded for nothing when i woke up. And i didn't even do anything wrong. I just slept for a few more mins coz i was tired and they had to grumble and scold me. For god sake, i was doing my report till 4am and obviously i can't wake up as usual.
I'm already mentally and physically drained. What do you want from me? Things are just not going smoothly for me.
think again. 12:05 AM
