Thursday, June 08, 2006
Been staying home for the past few days. I'm kinda addicted to the korean shows nowadays. There's this show called 玻璃画 shown on Channel U at 6pm. Then there's 新娘18岁 shown on Channel U every monday and tuesday. Hahas. Since school started, I haven been watching any shows on tv.
wahahaha. Now is the time for me to really enjoy myself before i'm busy again. (=
But then, there's so much work to complete in such a short time.
Bird flu: Past, Present and Future. What am i supposed to write? Hai. It's due on monday and i have yet to start. Arg! So frustrated.
Going to school tmr for cultural meeting in the morning and briefing for track and field thingy in the evening. Finally i'm getting out of house.
Went to see the doc just now. He says my ankle should heal in a few days time. Hahas. And he says i'm able to run by july! hahas. Yippe!! =)
I wanna go out shopping! Anyone free? Hahas. I wanna buy clothes and shoes. =x
Most importantly, I wanna go kbox! Hahas. I've never been to kbox before.(I know i'm a mountain tortoise) =P
Anyway, I was watching channel U 7pm show, lu guang shen lin and i suddenly got this nostalgic feeling. It's hard to explain or describe this feeling. Whatever it means, I'm going to remember this feeling.
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Well. Life is unpredictable and death is inevitable and unavoidable. Many things have happened recently and i can't help but to think when it will be my turn. My uncle just passed away last week. I was supposed to go back to m'sia this week to visit him but now i don't have the chance.
I still remember the time when my grandma passed away. It was in 2004 when i was Sec 4. I still remembered my mum telling me in the morning that my grandma had passed away. At that moment, i was stunned. Lots of thoughts and emotions were running through my mind. I can't believe that she's gone. My one and only grandma had passed away. I still went to school on that day. But i left for m'sia immediately after school ended. On the journey to Muar, i kept asking myself why didn't i go back to visit her when i could. I was too busy with my preparation for O levels that i neglected her. I really hated myself for that. When we reached my grandma's hse, most of my cousins had already arrived. I saw the coffin in the living room. I was so
afraid to look into the coffin because i knew i would cry as soon as i saw her. And i did.
My mum was already crying so badly even before we reached. I didn't know what to do to console my mum at that point. My grandma was still in good condition when we saw her during Chinese New Year that year. But at that time, not alot of my relatives especially my cousins knew of her condition. The night when i spent at my cousin's place, she asked me whether i knew that my grandma had cancer and I said i did. Both of us cried. There was nth we could do.
It's been 2 yrs since her departure. Somehow i feel that she's always around us. Last week, my mum freaked me out when she told me she always see my grandma in the kitchen. But to think of it, why should i be afraid? She's my grandma.
Ah ma, where ever you are, I'll always miss you. May your soul rest in peace.
Feelin emo again. Impromptu entry about my grandma. Just wrote whatever came to my mind. wumehmeh. Gotta go do my essay now. =x
think again. 9:10 PM
